Suicide notes of Yutaka Taniyama and his fiancée

Yutaka Taniyama (1927--1958) is a Japanese mathematician who proposed the Taniyama–Shimura conjecture, which was an important step in the solution of Fermat's Last Theorem. He committed suicide at the age of 31. His suicide note is as follows, taken from the Japanese Wikipedia:

昨日まで、自殺しようという明確な意思があったわけではない。 ただ、最近僕がかなり疲れて居、 また神経もかなり参っていることに気付いていた人は少なくないと思う。 自殺の原因について、明確なことは自分でもよくわからないが、 何かある特定の事件乃至事柄の結果ではない。 ただ気分的に云えることは、将来に対する自信を失ったということ。 僕の自殺が、或る程度の迷惑あるいは打撃となるような人も居るかもしれない。 このことが、その将来に暗いかげを落とすことにならないようにと、心から願うほかない。 いずれにせよ、これが一種の背信行為であることは否定できないが、 今までわがままを通してきたついでに、最後のわがままとして許してほしい。

Until yesterday I had no definite intention of killing myself. But more than a few must have noticed that lately I have been tired both physically and mentally. As to the cause of my suicide, I don't quite understand it myself, but it is not the result of a particular incident, nor of a specific matter. Merely may I say, I am in the frame of mind that I lost confidence in my future. There may be someone to whom my suicide will be troubling or a blow to a certain degree. I sincerely hope that this incident will cast no dark shadow over the future of that person. At any rate, I cannot deny that this is a kind of betrayal, but please excuse it as my last act in my own way, as I have been doing my own way all my life.

Suicide notes of Akutagawa Ryūnosuke

The suicide note of Akutagawa Ryūnosuke, "A Note to a Certain Old Friend", is just one of several notes he wrote before suicide. I translated them by referring to a Chinese translation, a Japanese transcription, and an extremely detailed study of the manuscripts, which contains way too much information.

Overview of the documents

From 芥川龍之介から妻・芥川文子宛ての遺書 Suicide note from Ryunosuke Akutagawa to Fumiko Akutagawa (2010)

芥川龍之介は1927（昭和2）年7月24日日曜日早朝に自殺した。つぎのとおり複数の「遺書」を残している。 

Ryunosuke Akutagawa committed suicide early in the morning on Sunday, July 24, 1927. I have left several "wills" as follows.

　　　a. 妻・芥川文子 宛て（原稿用紙2枚）
　　　b. 妻・芥川文子宛て断片1（同1枚）
　　　c. 妻・芥川文子宛て断片2（同1枚）
　　　d. 「わが子等に」 比呂志・多加志・也寸志 の息子3人がいた（同3枚）
　　　e. 友人・菊池寛 宛て（同2枚）
　　　f. 友人・小穴隆一 宛て（同5枚） そして
　　　g. 「或旧友へ送る手記」（友人・久米正雄 宛てだとされる）

a. To wife, Akutagawa Fumiko (2 Japanese manuscript sheets)
b. Fragment 1, addressed to wife Akutagawa Fumiko (1 sheet)
c. Fragment 2, addressed to wife and Fumiko Akutagawa (1 sheet)
d. "For my children", addressed to his three sons, Hiroshi, Takashi, and Yasushi (3 sheets)
e. To friend, Hiroshi Kikuchi (2 sheets)
f. To friend, Oana Ryuichi (5 sheets)
g. "A Note to a Certain Old Friend" (Likely addressed to a friend, Masao Kume)

Short online games recommendation

Each game should be finishable within an hour.

The Company of Myself
https://www.kongregate.com/games/2DArray/the-company-of-myself
Sad philosophical game about a loner.

Missed Message
https://zephyo.itch.io/missed-message
Interactive fiction. Depression, cyclic day, suicide, lesbianism... also 2018 memes.

Fixation
https://www.kongregate.com/games/2DArray/fixation
Prequel to The Company of Myself. Has comics as transitions. Even sadder.

Viricide
https://www.kongregate.com/games/2DArray/viricide
An AI talks about someone of their lifestory. The AI might be depressed just like their programmer.

Pointless Notes: Murder and Complex Analysis

Theodore John Kaczynski, BA (Mathematics, Harvard University, 1962), PhD (University of Michigan, 1967), is famous for being a series bomber, but to mathematicians, he's also known as a complex analyst. Not a (mathematically) famous one, but a competent one at least, and some also said he was brilliant. In 1969, he resigned as an assistant professor at Berkeley.

There was a news article about his math, and it contained the usual kind of flailing about how research level math is too hard for layponies. No need to be so dramatic about it... 

I was amused by this:

Writing in the first person plural is common in mathematics, said Kenneth Ribet of UC Berkeley. So in hindsight, the Unabomber's manifesto may provide an obscure hint at its alleged author's former profession. 

The mathematician's habit of writing in the Royal We has been exposed!